was browsing through some of my albums in fb. comparing the us now and the us in july. its so different. everyone changes like so fast. we were so happy back then. i couldnt describe it in fact. no worries and everything. everything was so genuine .

how i wish all e problems that everyone's facing now can just disappear. i really wish for it to be just a nightmare , and nth comes true. IF ONLY. all the regretful decisions , all the unnecessary hurt , avoiding, misunderstanding , worries, SHOOOO!!! I DONT WANT THEM ALL. NONE.

hai . must be thinking why i'm kind of affected. ok i haven really got the chance to tell anyone cos my trouble as compared to theirs is really minimal.. i think they need more help and listening than i do. i really want to help them all. be it lending a listening ear or whatever. cos i know it really , really is terrible not to have such support and accompaniment.

hai . but well, i just feel that i could have done sth otherwise to avoid everything, like really EVERYTHING. to start off, root of problem was myself. ok . all the wrong moves and everything. 'm already like guilty-stricken . totally. so can U stop making me feel bad about everything already? not as if i really care what u think, and not as if u bother, but i dont think i can hold it on any longer if ur attitude persists.

right now, i just want to help as much as possible . be it case 1, case 2 , case 3 . . . but of cos, i dont want my gd intention to be misjudged. if ever sth like this happens, i can tell u that, nth can beat how disappointed i'll feel.

hai. right now i just need to find someone whos calm and composed to understand how i really feel so that i can relate my emotions. just one.