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one of the my favourite songs from local artistes.

BROKEN- Sezairi Sezali

Dropped off your keys last night,
The front door still unpainted.
You were polite like ice,
I, once could met it.
You took our pictures down,
And you left them on the ground
Its like you wiped all the memories,
Of what we used to be...
You and me, before it all crashed down.

And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don't want to leave this way.
All I know,
Is broken.

I heard your voice break, when you said,
"well I hope you're happy".
Nothin' to say, I'll stare, straight into my coffee.
Then the conversation changed,
How we talked around the blame,
And the pain of losing.
All of the good times lost,
When it all crashed down.

And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don't want to leave this way.
All I know...
Is broken.

Well I'm here if you need me,
I know you don't believe me.
well I'm so sorry,
For all the pain I've caused.

And I know I never told you,
That I love you,
Now its all too late.
And I don't know how to hold you,
But I want to,
I don't want to leave this way.
All I know...
Is broken.

coming back home, and ain't feeling good ):
it pretty much hurts.

SATURDAY - 2606

first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY 2 DEAR FRIENDS.
FANGLIN and EUNICE.

ehh. shant have much personal words for u here. will write it on the birthday card instead.
yeah but still hope u guys spent a wonderful birthday.
fl, hope u got ur surprises and even the morning call by darryl. stay happy always k!
eunice, hope friday night was awesome for ya. sorry that i didnt manage to join u and ahbeng. but hopefully, his surprises were great too. too bad i didnt manage to witness and see what he planned. awww! but well, i bet it was enjoyable enough.

last but not least. happy birthday to u two. stay smiley :D

today's such an awesome day that its enough to make up for all the ludicrous events that happened over these past few weeks.

TCP acting class-

acting class was totally fantastic. love it ttm! initially when we were asked to report from 1-5pm, i was thinking that i might feel tired in btw or sth. but no. i was proven wrong totally. today was just too fun yo. very practical stuff . and as usual, sean was being really funny. we just LOL-ed big big time over these 4 hours. and the ups thing was being able to learn a lot of stuff. 'm really really appreciative. hahas.

saw the full preview of Intangible Bond trailers. yes, its the new show that tcp is showing up on their website after The Pinnacle. and its PERFECT! anticipating for viewers comment when they see it. cos i think its really really good!! (:

anw, i couldnt stop laughing during that whole period of time due to various reasons. one of them was this. we were supposed to act out these 6 sentences.

A- 你干嘛来找我?
B- 我是来杀你的！
A- 你疯了！
B- 你才比我更疯！
A- 你已经无可救药了！
B- 你不要再说了！

ok honestly, after reading these 6 lines. first expression and everything is related to those kind of 激动 kind of feel.

but! oh gosh. he decided to try sth new. with these 6 lines, there will be 3 kinds of interpretation. 1. 伤心 2. 开心 3. 疯狂. yes u saw it right. theres happiness ! i was like omg. how will someone act e above lines as happy? ok . i was like GG.

so to be fair, he drew lots. i was praying hard not to get the happy role yo. but! OMGG!!! both Carmen and me were the awesome lucky ones who got it. She's A and I'm B. hahahas. we were like thinking, gone! gone! haha!

and srsly, throughout the 10 mins given to think about how we should do it, we almost fainted. haha cos everyone got to act it out to the rest. and we felt super weird having such emotions. but well, after much discussion and some out of e box thinking, haha i think we still ok eh. although, really sth wrong. but comments given werent that bad. hahas. and with more directions given, i think woootsss! hahas, we did it! (: yahoo!! thanks sean, clarissa, willy, roy, chinyang for those comments! (: three cheers!

imagine us doing it in a very happy way . ahhas. although its still super funny. cos we added lines to the script at the back. after i finished saying the last sentence, i told her, 走, 我们去喝茶! hahha! happy isnt it? awesome! imagine us acting it happily. just imagine. or u might even want to try it out urself to see the challenge in it! (:

haha. but the others did well, having the 伤心 and 疯狂 characters! ups ! expression and everything. woots! and first time seeing chinyang act. yeah. from 7th gen. actually really not bad ehh! omg. shocked yo. my hair really stood up when he acted. nice. yup! and weisiong, our crew. he's awesome too. he did up a very nice clip on celebrating tcp 4th year 'anniversary' and its really great. wait till the clips are up to show it to u guys. pretty excited!! (:

and last min impromptu test. everyone had to experience impromptu stuff done by sean. and everyone's was so so funny! cos everyone has different situation .and mine, i really couldnt take it. i really didnt want to laugh at what he did cos was mentally prepared that he's gg to try stunt. but i tell u, no matter how serious we all wanted to be, we just couldnt control our laughter. ahhas. for me, i really couldnt take it that i just ran down stage and continued laughing. omg! hilarious.

theres much more funny things that happened which i aint gg to elaborate if not my blog would be super long. but well, am really really glad that its such an awesome afternoon spent!

yeah. after that had family dinner. seriously, Seoul Garden at downtown east is not advisable for the shorter ppl. not that im really that short, but gosh. the pan was really rather deep. i had to sit at the edge so that i can reach the pot. yeah. very very long tongs were given which was rather funny though. hahas. i had to use the long tongs to pick my food out of the pan. the chopsticks aint long enough for my hands. haha faints! and my poor hotdog fell to the ground ! ): hahas. ok random.

yeah. anw,went movie with family. seriously, dont rmb that i ever watched a movie with all 3 of my family members. the only time was when i was a kid. and i rmbed my first ever movie was Hercules. hahhaa yeahh. and this will be the second time though. and KARATE KID! (:

wanted to watch it like quite badly. haha. and finally got the chance to. honestly beginning was a lil draggy for me eh. the ups part only came in , in the second half of the show.but was really touched by a couple of scenes. overall stars, i'd give 3.5/5 . yeah..

Dre Parker acted by Jaden Smith is rather good. i love the way he expresses himself. his crying scene. his expressions. ups! besides, jackie chan's acting seems to take on a different path. he doesnt have much action shows,and even shedding his usual tongue-in-cheek comedy roles. this show reflected more of his internal emotions and acting skills. pretty awed by it though, cos my impression of his shows quite cartoon like. ahhas.

anw, Karate Kid is a rather sweet-natured show. and the line which impressed me most is this. 'Life may break us down , but its US who choose whether to pick it up again.' its can apply to many many contexts. just substitute the word Life to sth else and the sentence will still bring great impact to me. (:

yeah. then my brother went to play the basketball at e arcade. sooo sick!! in stage 1 he already score more than 100 points. hahas. lucky i didnt feel like playing, if not so embarrassing. ahhas. i think even if stage 2 is over, i will only score less than 100. haha joke.

but, overall ,

SATURDAY IS FANTASTIC! :D

FRIDAY - 250610

early in the morning at 12 am. started to plan fl's celebration. discussed with limin and sihui . and tadah, a surprise for her.

but suddenly thought that i still owe teeyien a meal for his birthday too. so decided to call him along. hahas. and since its rather last min, gathered those online and those who confirm can make it for easier planing..

yeah. so keep questioning fl if she could let me have the full one hour of her lunch break. she doesnt know theres more ppl helping her celebrate. yeah and also cos she mentioned that her colleagues gg to celebrate with her. hahas. scary yo. cos time quite tight. but luckily in e end, she decided to make herself available for e one hour . nice!

yeah so, reach earlier with limin and sihui to buy card , settle cake and gather them at the venue. then decided that, we haven celebrated andy's birthday due to exams. although its super belated , like in april, but its the thought that counts yo! ahhas. so its a total new idea at 1.15pm that we should help fl, ty and andy celebrate their birthdays tgt.

so quickly wrote on the card, on e spot. funny thing is theres 3 cards which we need to write on. so , ty has to help fl and andy write (with no intention of seeing his own card, although its hard to avoid) ahhas. and the same for both fl and andy. hahas . joke!

haha so at 130pm, i went to 'fetch' her alone. yeah cos apparently im the only one she assumed who'll be celebrating with her. (:

so i asked her what she wants to eat since its her birthday. hahas. and i pre-empted that she say anything. hahas. thats why kind of very confident to bring her to Swensens to meet up with the rest. (limin, sihui, andy, teeyien, yeowhwee)

3 similar cards. but of different shapes so that wont be mixed up! lols.
aeroplane card:andy's
door card: fl's
folded into half card: ty's hahah!

fanglin.andy

adele.sihui

limin.teeyien.yeowhwee

hahas so we ordered our main course. and we were really full after that. then the birthday babies said they want to order Earthquake. waa then limin, sihui and myself was like panicking cos we already ordered a surprise ice cream cake from swensens. if still order Earthquake, confirm cannot finish yo. omg. then they asked us should we order small or big Earthquake. then i tried to hint them that theres a cake coming up by saying that we relaly should order a small one. but unfortunately, none of them caught the hint! OMG!! HAHAS. but didnt want to spoil the surprise , so just ordered a big one. haha

we 3 were like GG! LOLS!!

so after our main course, we had the cake served and they were indeed surprise and they finally realised how come we wanted a small Earthquake instead of a big one! lols .

happy birthday/belated birthday to 3 of them! (: hope it was wonderful. ahahs. i think 3 of them all got their fair share of surprises (: hopefully! although, andy was the most shocked one. ahha

okay, took much much great effort to finish a slice of ice cream cake.

and upon seeing this, i really want to faint already. hahahs.i didnt even want to eat one spoonful of ice cream at all!! hahaha. one by one, we gave up after eating the cake.

haha and much thanks to ty and andy who ate 3 quarters of it. omg! they really can eat. seriously! imagine. one main course, pizza, ice cream and then Earthquake. waa really EARTHQUAKED!

haha . and the most dreadful thing. hahas the bill. ahhas. split among the 4 of us(excluding the birthday babies) ahas. but the cost a bit high, so ty and andy chipped in 10 each. ahhas subdised! thanks yo! (:

yeah. so fl went back to work. ty went on to meet other friends. and the rest decided to sing K at cine. haha.

and andy's voice. faints. when he sings, i dont feel like singing already. i dont even dare touch the mic. cos its so FANTASTIC. the way he sings very song. gosh. i can emote it very well!! and its so nice luh!! u guys should hear it personally. 2 songs which i think he sang really ups were
如果这就是爱情 & 黑裙子. yes u're right. both female singers. and he sang the original key. -.- uber ups! but so sad, he just graduated from SIM. so the chances of him coming back to sing in esprimere will be lesser. ): well, thats what K session are for. ahahs.

yup, after singing, work as usual for me. and . . after a tiring day, think it went quite well, cos my ultimate aim was to make friends around me happy (: not sure if i succeeded though. but anw,

GOODBYE FRIDAY. ok sorry. anti climax. haha.

bumped into kenneth coincidentally today. haha the expression on his face always make me want to laugh. hahas. and awesome! he's coming to UOL! (: perhaps im gg to see him in school soon . yays! :D

anw, went to satisfy my singing needs again today. i seriously need to sing , thats why. and today's singing session was awesome only after we ate dinner. before that, our voice were really cmi. hahas. after dinner , all the energy came out. we had our FIR, SHE, ahmei 'concert', their voices fit these hahas.

and u know what, these 2 days of singing, didnt sing any lzx or xjt songs. claps claps. except for the duet song , yi yian shun jian which the rest sang, and i didnt. ahhas ok . fine. maybe i sang one lzx song, thats the in your eyes. tahts all yo. goshh! nice. managed to control. haha.

cabbed home and e taxi driver was so nice. haha!! only those in e cab knew what happened. hahaha!! okay. today totally had fun with themm!! lovess! and dont know whose forks broke whcih got us all laughing non-stop haha! (:

secondhand serenade's new album is out! and its really nice. 'm gg to share one song from e new album per day. yup. lasting for 11 days.

and 'm in e midst of learning a few new and old songs. nice. (:

SOMETHING MORE - Secondhand Serenade

50 in 5 days. awesome.

satisfied my craving for singing today. but 'm really disappointed with my own voice. ever since i changed the way i sing (cos i always tend to use the fake voice, and has this really kiddish voice), i sing much worse now. i cant seem to change the placement from the real to the fake voice as smoothly. yeah after forcing myself to use the real voice, the voice placement also changed. 'm sad ): i cant seem to find my voice back ): sobs!

EVERTHING I DO, I DO IT FOR YOU- BRYAN ADAMS

look into eyes, you will see
what you mean to me
search your heart, search your soul
and when you find me there
you’ll search no more

don’t tell me, it’s not worth trying for
you can’t tell me, it’s not worth dying for
you know it’s true
everything i do, i do it for you
look into heart, you will find
there’s nothing there, to hide
take me as i am, take my life
i would give it all, i would sacrifice

don’t tell me, it’s not worth trying for
you can’t tell me, it’s not worth dying for
you know it’s true
everything i do, i do it for you

there’s no love, like your love
and no other, could give more love
there’s now here, unless you’re there
all the time, all the way
oh you can’t tell me, it’s not worth trying for
i can’t help it, there’s nothing i want more
i would fight for you, i’d lie for you
walk the wire for you, ya i’d die for you
you know it’s true
everything i do, i do it for you

got this totally awesome song to share. do hear it .

(youtube didnt allow e actual MV to be embedded which has 17 million viewers! u can check it out here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGoWtY_h4xo&feature=player_embedded)

its an irony how composed/consoling/calm/rational/encouraging when it comes to friends asking me for advices about their problems .

be it friendship/relationship problems or other matters that are of a certain impact.. i can give them such awesome ideas to which they can consider and finally adhere to.

but when 'm the victim of these problems, 'm totally messed up. totally lost . i cant seem to be able to judge properly. cant determine whats right and wrong. worse still, even though i know its wrong, i still willingly and blindly let myself continue walking on this 'wrong' path. accepting all e unfair treatment .

as a victim, 'm losing my sense of direction easily, losing my rationality. i practically lost myself . just letting myself struggle to balance on that thin string.

why?

p.s aint angry when 'm blogging this post. its more of a disheartened food for thought for myself.

I realised 'm afraid of falling..

falling in.. and falling out..

it's not my forte, like seriously.