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Friday, February 26, 2010

prelims starts tmr. wont be gg to work for quite a couple of days. in fact most of my fri, sat, sun. and that explains my the front page of my file so messy. thanks to the relief teacher who's gg to help me relief my students. goshh. think 'll be missing some of them . and sadly, oh dear! 2 of my students are having exams on the 13th and 16th march respectively. theory and practical. and i cant guide them through the last hurdle. yes, i do feel stress for them, but if only, i was there with them to complete the final lap , it'd be better. at least i feel safer. but well! i still wish them all the best. and hopefully, the relief teacher can add on/teach them more plus plus points.

this is one of my friday students. hahas. and this is e true meaning of 认真的男人最帅 . LOL. eh wait, he's just my student. dont anyhow think. he's like 5 year old k. ahhas

anw, was fb-ing and saw a couple of status that explains PARTIALLY what im feeling right now.

' Will there ever be someone to care and guide me through this. So sad so upset so useless so lifeless. Silence is what I hear now. Aching is what I feel now. But there's only myself to lean on, to push on. But I'm really ... Gonna lose that grip... Falling, falling ....'

i guess some of u know whose status this belongs to. but anw, i think im also gg to lose that grip. grip to what i dont know specifically. just dont feel right.

been feeling v trapped. trapped btw what, i also dont know.
just hate those insensitive feelings that ppl potray. its really kind of sad. but what else can u do, but to just ignore. i already told myself not to get affected by things thats not worth it at all. if treated this way, then whatever ba. its alright. okie, i admit that i already got affected by everything . bearing the consequences and asking me not to do this and that. and even pinpointing things that 've already done thats is wrong(in ur opinion). this just shows that u didnt bother to find out how i feel about everything. but like i said, its alright. and actions done which got me all bizarre . nvm. its alright. as long as i did my best in salvaging everything, i think i've done my part. and i can say that theres not only one victim, at the end of the day, im v sure 'll get hurt most. but im glad that it was very straightforward and right to the point in which u wanted to tell me whats ur viewpoint although u're not involved directly.

and i told myself to chill about certain things, but at the end of everything, i lose the battle. no matter how i psycho-ed myself, right from the v beginning(since the day arghh. shant say) GG. not that im angry. but more of confused.. thinking of ways to get out. but the thought just lingers in my mind. 'll definitely get nagged by some of my friends if this truth is out.. thats why, right now, i just prefer everything to maintain at where it is. i dont want complication. if 've kept this for so many months, i believe i can continue keeping it to myself. cos. i really dont want complication. and i dont want to hear any results.

and i wish everything will go on fine for my cousin. sth unfortunate happened. ): dont wanna blog about the details here. but still wishing her well .

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

slept late, and went school early to study. as a result not v productive. but okie luh. at least i did study.

yh had test this aft, so like kind of tested him on his notes. there's this part which he said no need to learn. but apparently, after doing his paper, haha it was tested! omgg. but well, i think he's so going to owe us lunch if he gets a HD.

hahas. anw, fl xc km yh lm were also in sch. wa.. now is really chiong mode. prelims is like on sat. faint. jiayou ppl! (:

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

went to school early early to study.

like serious study till 5 plus pm. and thats the max alr. haha

then after dinner we went to halo bar at NP. most imptly to sing. we are suffering from some lack of karoake singing symptom. hahas. just had the urge to sing. haha

playing yu le bai fen bai game. ahhas. and also many guessing number games

im still uber sober after losing/downing 5 cups of drinks. omgg .. next time choose ppl like xc to play with, cos he will produce some unknown pattern and for nth, u'll win him. ahhahs ! anw, i realised, after drinking, the voice kind of opened up more. weird but really true.

well tmr gg to study.

anw, been thinking about lots of stuff . why must problems keep occurring and then re-occurring. can i just request that everything just go back to where it was. kind of regretful about most of the problems that's happening now. SIGH. its like 'IF ONLY ... and IF ONLY..'

where has all e trust go to? i cant seem to trust totally. maybe cos of all the mismatching of information, hiding of information? its really very irritating. i dont know. maybe its nth much, and i think too much. but whatever it is, if only everyone is as honest and clear-minded, everything wont have happened. what i need is v simple. honesty and not trying to hide anything. if not, its v tiringg. very . can someone just understand this?

MONDAY - 220210

visit to andy's place to bai nian.
plan: to cook and settle our lunch at his house. hahas. esprimere own home cooked lunch. hahas

corn and chicken soup.

bacon and golden mushroom

as seen, ahhas some slacking outside to play monopoly deal. hahas

but the end product is still ups! (: added prawns, scallops,plus tomato and of cos the pasta sauce. hahs. once again, i chopped the garlic and onion and helped fry it! woots (: and everythign tasted nice after our mass effort in the kitchen! heh!

overall was ups. gambled here and there. eg. blackjack, texas poker, mahjong. ahhas like some gambling den. win quite a bit here and there too. yupp. think everyone had their fair share of fun. hahas.

some of them went to watch movie. wasnt really interested in the movie they were watching so, decided to give it a miss. but omg! i took about half an hour to wait for the bus and took uber long to reach home from tamp to pasir ris. sad. but nvm! at least i reached home after all. ahhas

anw! thanks andy for hosting! greatly appreciated (:

Monday, February 22, 2010

went over to andy's place for CNY visiting. hahas. i shall blog about the details tmr. anw, it was pretty fun (:

anyway, i got to share a joke!

Someone wanted to tell me he's the cream of the crop. hahas but u know what kpj said? LOL

he said, 'i'm the top of the cream!' LOL ! JOKE. i was totally LOL-ing.

ok shall blog about everything that happened today, tmr (:

Sunday, February 21, 2010

work this afternoon. wa super cui. cos long working hours. but today quite funny. cos my fav student (of 5 years old) gave me two oranges and said happy new year in a v sweet voice. the thing is i dont have any to return cos i srsly didnt expect oranges to be exchanged. ahahs. and rmb, i've this about 50 year old student? hahas. he gave me red packet! OMG. super ps. and some more, i could see other students getting red packets from their teachers, so i kind of feel ahem for my students cos i cant give them red packets.

anw, today, im like gg to work to collect oranges and red packets.

haha k so after work. went to cut hair. woot! cos apparently KPJ keeps complaining that perhaps the load of the hair is taking up too much nutrients in my brain. hahas. and also, i wanted to cut since quite long ago. maintained the length but, went to make it thinner. so kind of better now. not as messy. haha. yupss.

then went to study. left like only 3 hours to study cos have to be home early today. apparently, i think someone gave me the wrong description cos i dont rmb the bus turning left at all. but oh wells, at least i reached mac safely.

studied another chap of stats. but still only here and there. faint. omg.. booo! feel stress yo! ): and srsly, studying out is much productive than studying at home, i think.

and i dont know why e colour of my tea becomes like that. and its not nice. apparently, coffee was added to it. omg. hahhas. its really cui.hahas. dont dare to drink after getting scam into drinking one sip.i srsly didnt know.

and apparently, when ppl are studying, he is beating mosquitoes. hahah! and the smack was uber loud. really attracted a lot of attention. embarrassing. omg haha even i myself got a shock. i thought what happen! haha

and OMG. when we were eating dinner, he was brushing the cat's fur. thought it was a friendly action, but oopss! wrong. suddenly, the cat just scratched and bit him on his palm. obviously he pulled it away, but it led to greater scar. omg. when i saw the scratch, i could feel how painful it can be. OUCH! he was bleeding and theres like marks. goshh! cats are really unpredictable.. take care yo. although i see the strong front u're putting up and still spinning the markers. . . haha. and say clearly, no extortion of tehpengs!

happened to have a soccer match, and mac was showing it live. blackburn vs bolton. hahas quite a couple of funny scenes. it was a throw in, but apparently, when he threw the ball in , he ended up straight into the goal post! lols. of cos not counted as a goal luh. but why was it so accurate. ahhas. like playing netball. ahhas. and one more, blackburn player purposely knocked down the goalkeeper with a ball in his hand when the referee wasnt looking. its a super childish move. we were totally LOL-ing. luckily referee didnt see , if not for nth get booked.

200210 - saturday

work in the morning. hahas had a new student. 4 years old this year. wa faint. as in really young yo. but well at least still can communicate on the same frequency. hahas. not a lot of ppl can do that k. hahas. but the funniest thing was when he first entered the room, his mum said: ' bye kaemon(his name). pay attention during lesson k. see you after class.' you guess what my student replied. srsly hilarious. he said : ' ok , mummy. see you next week. ' i was totally stunned and LOL-ing. ahhas NEXT WEEK. hahas. i dont want to bring him home eh. ahhash. joke.funny! (:

hahha . okie . anw, later went to allie's place to bai nian. organised by wendy! thanks yo. mario-ed. rainbow, the killer track where basically allie and yh keep falling off the track. hahas. cos the tv keep blacking out. hahas

banban. but not mine. ahhas. think its andy's hahas.

and thanks to allie mum for hosting. she bought lots of Mac for us. omg faint. hahahs.4 boxes of 20 pcs nuggets. 4 large cokes. 4 packets of Mcwings. many fries and twister fries, and numerous packets of chilli and curry sauce. faint. ahhahs but thanks anw (: these two hungry ppl.

LOL. its really difficult to take a gd picture with bonson! lols. cos we will keep moving backwards so that our face wont be so big. ahhas. and decided that his distance the best. ahhas. cos both of our faces uber small! LOL

hahas . after much negotiation regarding the distance of our face to the camera lens. we decided on the actual distance. no playing cheat. ahhas omg.

i srsly dont know why there is such a pic in my camera. omg. hahas

played 'in between' hahas. and the stack has a good amount of 12 bucks i think. yh got A and J. so honestly, the prob of winning all the money is v high. ahhas. so he said everything in. hahas. but OMG. suay enough. As came out. and he got to pay double. ahhas.

group pic! (: i like <3

once again, thank allie for hosting! (: much appreciated! (:

by the time we left allie's place kind of late already. like 745pm. yeah. thought we were leaving at 6 plus though. but well, after alighting some of them , we really did go study. although it was only me. hahas. cos yh was sleeping throughout. nth could wake him up. at least i tried. but i didnt try too hard, in case his dragon eyes flare up. then I GG alr. hahas. after his sleep and my study, went to dinner. ok this yuan tang kept us awake till quite long.

and this recommneded eel porridge by him . i cant get used to the taste. yeah. cos too fishy already. but the porridge itself is nice. wooot. better than eating chicken chop and fries, after mac-ing so much at allie's place. hahahs

and srsly, no one wants to feel the tension at home at 2 plus am. was so afraid my mum/dad/brother would wake up and see what happen. LOL. my heart nearly stopped. omg. faint. hahas

Friday, February 19, 2010

WEDDING DINNER.
congrats to vionna's dad. may both of them stay blissful and happy always. <3

'm sleepy. so not gg to type much. photos tell it all! (:

anw, first time gg to a pub to sing. enjoyed myself. ahhas. although abit cui. awesome and interesting enough. hahas. after exams should go again. everything AFTER EXAMS!

kies, anw!